deep sighs

"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves." Rainer Maria Rilke

My bestie Katie heard this quote in yoga last week and read it to me. As as admitted worrier, learning to let go has been an ongoing quest of mine. And although I've gotten better in the last few months, and have been far less consumed with worry than I was say, in March, it never hurts to be reminded that (1) most girls worry and (2) everything works out just how it should.

So why try to figure things out, when we can just embrace the mystery of not knowing what's to come? It's kind of like living in a Nancy Drew book. Or better yet, a Choose Your Own Adventure book. The choices are ours, and the outcome may be unknown to us, but it's already written. So just sit back, relax and enjoy the reading.

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gobbleskidoo!

A few weeks ago, Lily asked Court, "Mama, isn't it about that time to get out the Thanksgiving plates?"

And although I was more focused on wondering what four year old remembers using plates one time, almost a full year later, I also realized that it is, in fact, time to put away the Halloween decor and start loving on Thanksgiving.

And this Oh Joy! collage is the perfect way to start. I want that plate and I want to share it with Lily.

Eee I'm just so thankful for Thanksgiving.

making a list and checking it twice

Wellp, November is here, Sam's birthday has passed, and, although I am not OK with people playing Christmas music or decorating this early (let's respect Thanksgobble), I am totally comfortable starting my Christmas list.

Anybody asking for something awesome? I'm not quite sure what I want to put on mine yet, but I think it's time to start perusing. I really don't have many ideas and Muff wants a list! Holler at a girl.

PS: I can always find inspiration here. Ah. Happy.

reporting on this unbusyness

Real talk. October is over (which, btw, where did November go?!), and, as promised, it's time to report on my October goal of slowing life down a little bit.

I wasn't 100 percent successful every single week, but I did a better job than I had been doing of not overcommitting. And I am definitely loving the positive impact. I am feeling more organized and well-rested, and am going to continue my commitment to slowing down through this month as well. In fact, I might even try to make it a lifestyle change. No promises (as an inability to say no is what got me in this pickle to begin with), but it's a thought. And now it's out there. So it's a start.

Also, my purse is still just as organized as it was when I kick-started this self-campaign, so I'm feeling great about that. Little victories :)

And, to solidify my thoughts that this is, in fact a worthwhile quest, my friend Austin recently sent me this article, The Silliness of Busyness, and reminded me that I'm not alone in my feeling of sometimes swimming/sometimes drowning/sometimes can't say no-ness. The part about making list after list to keep track of everything you planned to do really spoke to me, as two frequent items on my daily work to do list (not to be confused with my daily personal to do list) are: check yesterday's list and make to do list for tonight. It's gross.

I took one small step last night of watching TV and not doing anything else while I did it. It was nearly impossible and I can't say I liked it, but I did it. And tomorrow, I think I will not make a single to do list.

Just kidding.

It hurts to even joke about it.

But either way, I'm aware of the problem and am committed to taking charge. And that, my friends, is all I can ask on this fine day.

Happy November to you little rabbits!

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